Believe in nothing.
I am alive.
Swimming of a pool of mud.
Follow the route towards light.
Shimmering holographic ghosts.
Flowers, glitter and red lipstick,
On the horizon of plastic plates.
ANGELS AND PLASTIC CATS
paper angels with glitter wings
give me comfort at night.
head of Barbie doll smiles to me
to tell me I am alive.
a piece of rubber sticks to my work desk.
last night I dreamt about apples.
plastic cats walk silently at night
on the LED lights.
Pieces of potato chips.
Smells like roses.
I promise I will keep a diary…backwards.
This is the last day of my life.
I sleep when I am awake.
I dream about a beautiful lake with blue water and sun shining on the surface.
I remember when I was a child the balcony facing the mountains.
I watched the mountains.
The never-ending mountains.
I disappeared in the vastness.
My eyesight went in the opposite direction.
Seeing the darkness.
I didn´t cry.
Just watching silently.